感谢老天！

今天，请你凝神屏息，严阵以待，因为，我终于脱离苦海了！世界万千，我黄百升，把心一横，把锅铲高举，将那个无良毒辣、狠心绝意、双手沾血、吃人吞骨的老板娘，炒她鱿鱼了!  哈 ！ 哈~ ！我疯了！我疯了！！！

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啊！~ ~ 啊！~ ~ 你们听到了没有？听到了没有？我那凄厉的叫声？每当深夜降临，夜幕低垂也好，万家灯火也好，虫鸣鸟叫也好，我的双手开始不自由主的颤抖，什么惊弓之鸟，什么心有余悸，什么毛骨悚然，统统都可以在同一个时间一起涌上。对于这份惨绝人寰的工作，掏人心肺，你可以想象，我双膝跪地，双手高举，拿的是我的五脏六腑，鲜血淋漓。如果你还可以想象，我是从一个炼狱里走来，背后拉长了没有灵魂的黑影，双脚不着地的飘离。

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如果我的四肢不能动弹，请将我从万丈深谷抛下，让我无止境的往下坠，因为我已学不会了挣扎； 如果我双目失明，把我荒置于断崖峭壁，让万虫啄噬，因为我看不到了逃跑的方向； 如果我声消音灭，让我在汪洋中漂流，给鱼只果腹，因为我没有了呼救的能力。如果我失去知觉，让我在荒漠中暴晒风干，因为我丧失了闪避的反应。

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但是，就因为我还可以挣扎、逃跑、呼救和闪避，所以我才要非将这份工辞退不可！

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（如果你不靠这么文雅的形容词想象，那么请你到我的跟前来，我现现实实地用世俗粗话说给你听！鸡败！）

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ok, 无论怎样，我还是出来了，我真的是不能想象我是怎样做这份工的！你不是我，你真得不能体会到，我不要讲它是辛酸，但是，隐隐约约，不是你从外头看进来的风光简单。

i've updated my photo album in friendster.

Check it, m8s. after thousands times struggles in my heart, i decided to quit the job today, i want to tell her this is another massive and ever great disaster after the bomb blasting in Central London.

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p/s: for those who email me about my situation here in London, thank you guys. i appreciate it very much.

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p/s 2: pls go to check the latest photo, this is the easiest way for me to up load those hard memories.

i'm so tired. honestly.

when i write a blog, there's an intension in telling my friends about my life here, although there are a lots of complaints and unsatisfied matters. sometimes, the story is sad and upsetting. but, i like it this way to express myself and let somebody who's cares about me know what am i doing at the moment. i always look at the sky above, you can see the cloud moving, sometimes dark sometimes bright. and i was hoping, hoping something different will change and bring goodness. i'm so afraid of worsen consequence will turn up and makes me feel horrible.

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i don't know how to imagine, as me and myself, live in this kind of life, like a prisoner who give up his freedom and soul and everything to pay to the devils. people say: this is life. Oh... whatsoever. i'm about to move on, should get something done and stand tough in any other way.

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i chat with a guy today, he is from Colorado. he said, England is 15 yrs backwards compare to the states. and i agree with him, he showed me few statistical figures saying that England just a shit in some perspectives like economics and the educations systems. and some more in their chaotic political world. and when i just live in a city like London and last year in Liverpool. after i watched their tv programs. i am so agree that England is just a shit.

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p/s: i got your comment, kai san. looking forward to meet you in London.